Random Thoughts

I blinked, with eyes that can't seem to take in the light as I stared at the ceiling and my mind spacing out. Then I thought, "Why am I so up so early in the morning?", then I remembered that today's a free day. I smiled and lazed about in bed with going back to sleep in mind. I felt the rush of emotions I was trying to appease for quite some time now. Hating sometimes what I let my thoughts drift into. Sometimes into fantasies and into irrational scenarios that I can't seem to not trickle in, little by little. Nothing harmful but sometimes almost impossible. Unconsciously, my mind seems to go to a place I've always desired to go into. I don't believe in emptiness, and now's not the time to start feeling somewhere near that. Now that I've already found what quenches my eternal thirstiness, I would not think I lack anything. No, that would be shallow of me and unreasonable. At times I really think I'm weak, although I know I'm made for greater things. But just sometimes, just sometimes, I see myself vulnerable. In this world of constant instability and rapid irregularities, I am convinced that I've found a refuge that's unshakable. Pondering, I ponder on the way I think, on the emotions I'm feeling, on the depth of my being.