What does it take you to be attracted to someone? Is it the physical features? His face? His eyes? The way he talks? His sense of humor? What does?
Me? I don't even know anymore. I've proven throughout the years that the person doesn't need to be outwardly handsome to catch my attention. He doesn't have to put his best foot forward. I've learned, that the wholeness of the person, alone, attracts me.
I would love to have the person be a good conversationalist. Someone I can talk to, about anything under the sun, without worrying that I'll be judged about my opinions. I would love to see his passion about the things that he loves to do most, to know what he is living for and to know why does he do what he's doing right now. I don't want to see false pretenses and I would love for him to be responsible. Lastly, I would love to know if it's God he loves the most, which will really override all other good qualities that the person might have.
Why am i saying this? Is it so that I can sell off what I'm looking for in a man? Actually no, I love my single life the way as it is, but what I'm saying is, I'm attracted to someone right now and I don't like the feeling. Why? Because I know the timing is still off and it would be good riddance if this emotional bundle goes away. Plus, I don't think the person will ever get to like me in that way and I don't like the feeling that "I'm not good enough" as well (which is a lie of the enemy).
However, I also like the feeling of rush that it gives. The excitement of wanting to see that person. But these are all empty thrills if I think about it, because all of these just brings my guard down and would provoke my emotions, which by the way, can result to actions I might regret in the future. So, I'm praying that God will guard my heart because that's the only way I can move on from what I'm feeling right now. At the end of the day, my love life, is something that God alone can orchestrate and I'll always choose to wait on Him.
