It's been ages ago since I wrote anything at all. It has been a rollercoaster I must admit. A lot of changes happened, great things but mostly not that easy. I guess enumerating some of it would be the easiest way for me to express myself.
Love
I have found the love of my life. That's the biggest change that happened. Some would say it was a whirlwind romance. A sudden and unwise decision even. But for the both of us, it was made in heaven, written in the stars, and destined by God. I know it must sound too much, but both of us had faith in "Us" so much that after nearly 5 months of being together, we made it official by tying the knot. At this point in time, after 2 years of being married, life has been tough but by God's grace it has been filled with joy, hope and LOVE.
Obstacles
Everyone has ups and downs and my family and I had some of the most challenging trials I have ever had. I guess it only goes to show that as you grow older and more mature, life will throw greater problems as you surpass each one. Each year I felt that our circumstances have been quite "insurmountable" but when I look at it now it seems minute and not as scary as it was. I guess that's how life works and how God makes you realize in the end that He was in control and He didn't abandon you when you thought He did.
Grace
I think this is what I am most thankful to God for. His tremendous grace to overcome. All these years I wasn't able to write, has been the most grace-filled times I have ever experienced. Probably because it has been full of the most trying and faith-shaking times of my life. Jesus, without You I am not here right now, THRIVING and THANKFUL.
Blessings
After 3 years, I have turned from 1 to 4!!! Me, Jake (the hubby), Zoe and Chelsea!! Two wonderful daughters have come to rock our lives with joy, laughter, cries and responsibilities! More than any material possessions, these 3 are the best blessings God has ever given to me.
Waiting
It has been a waiting game for the past 3 years for us. Living in London has really been a gigantic uncertainty. Until now, I still don't know if we can stay here in the long run.
Waves
This is how I can describe my faith. The honeymoon phase has passed and the high has subsided. I would't say that I am tossed and turned by the world but rather my fervor has been challenged on many occasions. I am fighting to remain zealous and faithful even though I seem to fail all the time. Ultimately, I still know in my heart that Jesus will always be my first love regardless of my mistakes or my lack of faith.
I feel so stoked because I'm writing again. I nearly forgot how I can contemplate on things and just stir up my thoughts in going deeper when I write. The Lord has been so good to me and to my family. Amazing things to come!
