Pressure

I feel the pressure!!!
Sometimes it gets to me...
I just shut my mouth on other occasions,
Sometimes I rationalize,
You shouldn't expect me to jump in a situation,
That I know is not right for me.
For the sake of wealth and prosperity.
I don't want to settle for less.
I also don't like being a pushover.
I'm an adult, I know how life works.
If I don't work, I'll starve
I also know that I'm not rich
Seriously...
I know I still have nothing much to offer.
I still don't have much.
Still can't support as much as I would want to.
But I love you.
I'll get there.
I'm willing.
To help, to provide, to give.
But now..
I'm doing my best.
I know sometimes I fail you.
You say I'm irresponsible.
But I will be responsible.
Greater is in me than that of in the world.
I am a work in progress.
I will change for the better.